Over the weekend, I read this powerful piece by Marianne Williamson and honestly felt every word of it. It’s a little something to print out, stick on your wall & read every day:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
My life isn’t very exciting at the moment, unless you want to hear all about property investment, property ownership and the technique to valuing property? Yeah, didn’t think so. Here’s my one letter for the week:
Dear SoCal (pictured above);
You kill me every time I think of you. From your beautiful coast line to your suburban streets. Even though I don’t want a McMansion, you make me feel like I do. I miss hanging out with the Irvine kids, going for drives along the coast, watching the sunrise from Malibu, driving through Beverly Hills, attending carnivals, sitting in the back of a ute as we drive through Yorba Linda, being accepted into any group I met.
If there’s anything that’s the key to my motivation at the moment, to work like a crazy woman and finish this degree as soon as possible, it’s you California. You’re never far from my wandering mind and you’re the last thing I think about every night.
I’ll be back soon, just let me get some things sorted out here.
Photo taken at Matarangi Beach, Coromandel (NZ)
Looking back over the last week, I can pinpoint an exact moment when things changed for the better. The exact moment I thought to myself, “I’m sick of feeling like this, I’m sick of these thoughts running around in circles”. The exact moment it happened, I had this out of body experience. It felt like I had taken a step back and watched myself from the outside. And as I watched on, I thought, “why am I getting involved in something that doesn’t benefit me nor does it have to have this negative impact on me”. So with that, I finally let go of what was holding me back. I let go of taking on problems that weren’t mine to solve & I accepted the fact that these things happened but they are now in the past. It was the conclusion to one chapter in my life that I hope I never have to open again.
I don’t think the finer details matter so much now, I think all that matters is that I’m heading in a better direction.
(photo idea from this image)
Quote by Theodore Roosevelt
I saw this quote in the morning & couldn’t help but feel these are the words I needed to hear this weekend. Instead of focusing on where I wish I was this weekend (on the East Coast with my bestie- an offer I had to decline regrettably), I’m going to instead, focus on how far I’ve come with my studies and how little time I have left with it all.
As much as I’m ready for the next chapter in my life, there are still some things I need to sort out where I am so this little time frame I have is a good thing. For a person like me, that has a problem with instant gratification, the biggest lesson I need to learn & apply to my life is being in the present moment & appreciating what this moment offers.
Days (and weeks) like these, I just need to look down at my ‘breathe’ tattoo and remember why it’s there.
Anyone else suffer (or suffered) from instant gratification and overcome it?
With Monday just around the corner, here’s something to think about this week: